All leading up to this

I have got to stop thinking about this. It's outrageous and totally never going to happen.
I hate Valentine's day.

I Need You

I'm just thinking about what it would be like if we had stuck to ourselves and stayed as close as sisters. But obviously, we're drifting apart, caught up with a million people in between us. Brief words are exchanged, perhaps a short conversation is held.
The fact is, I need you to be there for me when I need you. And right now I need you. I always need you.

This is home.

The title and picture are unrelated to this blog post.
I just felt like writing. I don't know about what, but I feel like writing.
Hmmm... I was going to write a poem but I got lazy and decided not to.
Do you know who I love? The Beatles. They're seriously the best band ever. Their music is so freaking creative! Yeah... Hmm... :3
Today I hung out with Keren-ha and Ale :D (Ustedes son  la ondaaa!) and we walked around Chapala taking pictures for our computers test. (We have to make an imaginary tour and take pictures of the places that we're taking the people to) So we took pictures and goofed around :P
Keren-ha and I went to this little "Get your weight and height measured" thingy and Keren-ha is 1,60 m!! Yay for her!!
And I'm 1,72! (And apparently I'm 20 kilos underweight! D:)
So yeah... Hanging out is fun. I want to do it more often.

Look up

This year is going so perfectly well. I'm making new friends, keeping old ones, getting job opportunities, becoming more creative, socializing more, and every day I'm just wearing a content face. I feel at peace. Like even though there are still conflicts in my life, this is about as good as it gets. I'm letting go of the bad part of me, and I'm working to fill in those empty spaces with good things.
I don't feel like a helpless romantic anymore either. This vacation really helped me let go and get over everything that's happened since school started. I no longer have the insane desire to be in a relationship. I'm functioning just fine with myself. I love the feeling of emotional freedom. My heart doesn't somersault whenever I think of myself being in a relationship with someone. That thought doesn't even come up anymore.
So this is what it feels like to be happy. I enjoy it a lot.

Keren-ha, we need to get together and do something. I'm serious. We're becoming strangers for goodness sake!

Well, I should like to think it's only gonna go uphill from here.

(^^^) (Shark)

OHMGLARJGUNEUAHGUHHHHHHH
Eh?
WHOOSIEDAISY!
I NEED A CAPPUCCINO!!!!
(And Lily won't share hers with me)
AAAAAGH I NEED SOME CRAZY IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.
LALALALLALAAAAAAAA READING ERAGON
And suddenly I'm suuuuper Hypeeeer!
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
Chrisser says: Oh love... Ah, smooches. Nuu.
O.o
Weeeird
Chrisser is trying to kiss Liller!
:O
I need a new hobby.
I miss mah Kedderlydoopafuzzleshopaliddleshalloopinalilollypopblueshoopdeedoop!
T-T
See how much I miss her?!?!?!!?!?!?!?
D:
I'm having "I miss Keddy" issues.
D:
COME BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK! AAAARGH I MISS YOUUUU! :(
(Do you miss me? I dunno... It could be possible that you don't, I don't know. Harumm... I'm going to be thinking about this all day now.)
Anyways....
Duurh
ERM...
Heehee
Umm... I'm gonna say "Bye-bye" for now.
Bye-bye!

Nothing but Feelings

So, I hung out with Mik a lot for the past 24 hours or so. It was great, filled with tons of laughs and great ideas. Mik introduced me to the vlogbrothers, which is made out of pure awesomeness. You guys should check it out for yourselves. Anyways, the first thing I did when I got home was watch some more of their videos. After delving deeper and deeper into the recesses of their videos, I found the video Rest in Awesome, Esther. While watching the video, I nearly cried. Wanting to know more about her, I went to her YouTube channel.
oiHSFIS SIFHSOIDF ihsafihds.ogisgoi eo
See, Esther had cancer. *Sigh* I cried so hard. Watching her videos and getting a tiny glimpse of her life was... I can't even describe it (Touching, sad, enlightening, symathetic, depressing, lovable, with a lot of epicness thrown in). Esther passed away about 4 months ago. Just seeing how much she cared for her family and how afraid she was made me cry. From what I could tell, Esther was an amazing person, even if she might have thought otherwise. She will be remembered, and she will rest in awesome.

Thank you, Mik, for introducing me to the vlogbrothers, and thank you, vlogbrothers for introducing me to Esther.

Welcome to Nerdfighteria, Maya.

FORGET YOU

My GOD.
Well.
Heh, this was all for nothing.
Figures.
I'm mad. I'm very, very mad.
But at least I'm laughing. Even though it's sardonic.
I'm still smiling.
I care, yes, but I honestly realized it wasn't worth it.
I'd really like to get a knife. A really dull knife.... Wait, no. Better, I'll use my freaking fingernails and SCRATCH HIS EYES OUT!
You have no idea how becoming that idea is to me right now.
I hope that when this is all over, that girl will break his stupid little heart.
He deserves it.
He broke mine many a time.
And he mended it again.
And then he broke it. Again.
Figures.
Well, I hope he regrets it when he sees how happy I am.
I'm over him. Oh yes, you heard me. I'm over it.
And I SO hope I get to break his heart later on.

Tataa, my friends. Happiness awaits me.

Am I jealous?

Hah. No.
I'm just irritated.
I seriously wish I could do that.
I guess "Suddenly I see" by KT Tunstall would be the song that fits my situation right now... Somewhat. Meh. Not really. I just like the song.

Once I finish translating my christmas story, I will post it on here.
Nutcracker rehearsals are tiring, but it's almost over.
Harumm. That was a good cookie. Thanks, Keira! IT WAS GINGERBREAD! :D

Oh yeah! My leg is totally messed up. Like, the ball of my foot is all weird, and then my ankle, then my knees, and finally, my hip. Like, the entire leg is out of whack. And it hurts. And I WANT IT GOOOONE! I mean, I'm gonna be dancing on it and I can't exactly be limping around the dance floor. Oh well. It will get better. I hope....

On a different note, Mik is coming! Yay!

._.

D: Tooo eaaaaarllyyyy!

So... I had to write a story for spanish. It had to be a christmas story. I wrote it. It's a work of art no matter what you guys say. A work of art despite the length, typos, cheesy jokes, etc. It's a masterpiece to me and I actually laughed when I read it over.
I went to bed at 2 AM this morning. Writing the story, doing my scarf, and watching glee. That episode made me want to cry, by the way. So freaking touching!
I woke up at 5 AM. Why? Because I needed to take a shower and my mom locked the puppies up in the bathroom. That had the only shower available at the time. Sooo, I hear this alarm, BEEP BEEP BEEP (the annoying type of Beep) and I groggily and reluctantly got up, wondering if the apocalypse would happen since I was waking up at such an ungodly hour. Well, it pretty much did. My plan consisted of waking up, silently moving the puppies to the exterior of the shower, and taking my nice, hot, relaxing shower. This is what actually happened: I went inside, crept over to the shower (Where the puppies were being kept), and three little puppies looked up at me, and I swear, they looked at me like I was some god or something. I didn't register what problems I would cause if I took them out of the shower, put them on the floor with their cage, and took my shower really quickly.
Well.
My shower was going fine, the puppies were being appreciatively calm, and I was taking my shower. Half way through, though, Large Puppy started wailing as if someone had chopped of her poor legs and put lime on them. Shocked out of my stupor from the shower, I tried to calm her and reassure her that her legs were indeed not being chopped off and being tortured. But nooooo. This dog insisted that she wanted to cry and wail because she wanted to be back in the shower. She didn't simply want to be pet. She wanted to be back in the shower because for some reason, she understood in her tiny little puppy mind that her bed was still there and she wouldn't take no for an answer.
This awkward dilemma got even worse. As the wails and whines grew louder, my poor mom got woken up and I swear, she would have murdered me right there and then for waking her up at 5 AM if there hadn't been any puppies as witnesses. I took the puppies out of the bathroom, awkwardly wrapped in a towel, while my mom shot imaginary daggers at me every once in a while.
Once the puppies were out, I was free to continue my shower. I finished it as soon as I could to help my poor mother with the puppies, who had calmed down now and were sleeping contentedly in her lap outside of the bathroom. I got dressed and sort of cowered in the corner while my mom whispered soothing words into the puppies' ears. I asked her if I could do anything, to which she replied, "I don't know." The axe-murderer tone was clear in her voice. I then offered to towel dry the shower so that we could put the puppies back in there so they could shut up. My mom accepted this idea as decent and I rushed to clean the shower before my mom decided to kill me or something. Once everything was dry, I put their stuff back in the shower and proceeded to carry their tiny little selves back to their makeshift home.
It was now 6 AM and I had nothing better to do, so I decided to make some coffee since I only got 3 hours of sleep last night.
And currently my only life sustenance that I'm using is coffee and whatever little rest I got from my 3 hour slumber.
*Yawn.*

And then it all comes crashing down...

Wow.

How miserable.
This all sucks. A lot. Geez, Maya. Leave it up to you to ruin your entire social life in one week. I'm not even kidding.
Emileano hates me because I'm "self centered and emo," while he's extremely hot-headed and dramatic. I try to act better for his sake, but he just starts yelling at me. Then I feel sad, which is exactly what he's yelling at me for, so it's an eternal loop of chaos! I seriously don't know what he wants with me. He yells and then makes me feel bad about myself and want to yell right back at him. I honestly don't know what to do with him. I mean, we used to be really, really good friends! Now we barely ever talk to each other.
Then *Ahem* actually likes Keren-ha. And I like him. And ohmygod I can't believe I'm giving you guys all this information. This situation is really, really tangled up. I've lost all hope.
Sofi's mad at me because I blame her for finding out who *Ahem* likes, which it totally is her fault! I never ever asked her to tell me who he liked. She just waltzed off and asked. I mean, it was NONE of her business! She had no right. And then she actually acts like it is her business, which completely ticks me off.
Then Keddy thinks I replaced her with a scarf... O.o

Since when did my life become so miserable? I seriously miss the times when I didn't have any homework, anyone I liked, any family problems, any insecurity about my identity. There actually was a time when I had all that. I want it back. I want my happiness back. Heck, I want my life back.

Thanksgiving was yesterday. I wasn't completely miserable then.
There are so many Beatles songs that could add up to my life's situation right now:
Yesterday
You won't see me
I'm looking through you
Hey Jude

Ugh... Just make it stop.
..Let me grow wings and fly far away from here.