Autumn

I figured it's time I should write again. I've gotten back from Colorado and we went to the mountains in NC. It seems like we're doing a lot of traveling, although we're really not. School starts in less than 2 weeks and I'm nervous and excited.
My life seems to be concentrated on reading and drawing, which has really helped me in a lot of ways. I've been thinking in a lot of different perspectives that I wouldn't have without reading so much and just living with the personalities of the protagonists and antagonists of every book. I feel open and excited and I keep on remembering how much I love reading.
As for drawing, the more I draw it feels like the better I get. Just studying the anatomy of the human body and also the techniques of other artists has given me a feel on how to make my own art. It feels really good, too. Just to learn new things. I just need to continue practicing and observing.
I've decided that the one word to describe my personality is Autumn. Anything about autumn is what I like. Just sayin'.
I think that's all I have to say right now. I miss each and every one of my friends, those in Mexico or elsewhere and I hope that everyone's doing well.

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PS. Rest in peace, Don Edwards. You were loved very dearly by all of those around you and you will never, ever be forgotten. You were a very dear friend to me.

All okay here

Everything is well on my end of the universe. No intergalactic one-eyed drunk monkeys to ruin my day. It's smooth sailing for now. Summer days are filled with library-acquired books, rather late nights and nonexistent mornings. I've always said I'm not a morning person. Hellooooo, 3 o'clock in the lovely afternoon! (Not really, the latest I've slept in is 2)

So yes, everything is alright. I don't know anyone, the only things I've purchased with my own money here is two french berets and three pins. Fun, eh? I still have those 120 pennies locked up safe in my drawer. 

I've been sort of catching up on my sketching, and I have definitely caught up with reading. Read 4+ books in less than a week. It made me oh-so happy :3 I have learned to bless and love libraries and hold those sacred buildings close to my heart. Why don't they have those beautiful knowledge infested buildings in Mexico? Downright shame. 

I miss Mexico though. My dreams still think I'm there. The other night I dreamed about my school, and I was miserable, but I missed it nonetheless. I  miss Keren-ha. I miss Mik. I miss Ruby and Cabo and CJ and even the cats. I miss my house and my bed and my desk and purple and blue walls. I miss the lake and I miss the air and I miss not having air conditioning and I miss the friends. I miss my life.

It sucks when you have to start from scratch.

Ya me voy

Indeed, I have redesigned my blog once again. I apologize. I do realize I change it a lot, but change is good. I'm really happy with the layout on this one ^^ Anyways, Lily inspired me to change my blog appearance so I did. One good thing is, the title of the blog is still the same.
Packing is painful. But luckily, I'm almost done. I'm going to miss everyone so much. But I'm also excited and looking forward to my future.

He hecho muchos amigos este año, y solo quiero agradecerles por ser tan especiales y apoyarme tanto, y aunque tal vez no se den cuenta, me han influido mucho y son muy buenos amigos. Les agradezco tanto, y les voy a extrañar muchisimo. Me diverti mucho este año con ustedes. Conoci a mucha gente nueva que me han ayudado con mi vida y me han dado consejos muy buenos.
Especialmente voy a extrañar a Enrique, Ale, Pedro, Dan, Mika, Sofi, mis amigos de cosplay, mis compañeros, etc.
Enserio, ustedes son la onda y aunque talvez ustedes no lo sepan, les voy a extrañar demasiado. Hay algunos de ustedes que solo he conocido por un año, pero son muy buenos amigos y me he divertido tanto con ustedes.

Keren-ha, I'm going to miss you too. You're incredibly special to me. I don't know how I'll get by without you by my side, to tell my secrets and stories to. I just want you to know that I'm going to miss you more than you know, and I'm so thankful that you're my best friend and you're around when I need you. You have influenced me in such a way that I know my life would have never been this awesome without you. We have so many memories, and each single moment with you has been held closely in my heart. You're the most special person I've ever met; your name does show who you are. A ray of brilliant light. Keep on shining, keep on helping people and being the beautiful person you are, inside and out.
If you ever need me, call, and I'll do my best to get to you. Even if we're in two separate countries, talk to me. I'm going to miss you so, so much. I can't put into words how much.

Mik, you are incredibly awesome. You're my partner in crime, and you have no idea how much that means to me. I'm glad I've finally found someone I can be ridiculously enthusiastic with, even if it's about the smallest things. I'm glad you're my cosplay partner and you share such incredible ideas with me. I'm looking forward to carrying out all our plans, from the Pirates of the Caribbean cosplay and skit to your awesome business ideas. You've been a marvelous friend to be around, and I love it that it's so easy to find ways to amuse ourselves together. I've had so much fun for the time I've known you, and you've made these last few weeks in Mexico a downright blast.
Continue being a great friend, and being friendly to everyone you meet ^^

And for everyone else, I will of course miss you guys too. You're made of awesome.

PS, I know I'm writing this a bit early, considering I'm leaving in a week, not 2 hours, but I doubt I'll want to write in it then.

Wish me luck people! I will miss you all!

Seasons

It's been too long since I've written a blog post. So here I am.
School and moving is stressful; I haven't even started packing. I have so much stuff to sort through I don't know how I'm going to start.
On a happier note, that awesome camera that we bought in North Carolina, we thought we didn't have a memory stick for it and the one we had for the other camera that we use didn't fit. Weeeeeeeell, I tried it out to day, and SURPRISE! It does. So. I did a bit of experimenting with the camera and it is THE COOLEST DANG THING ON EARTH. Just... So amazing and gadgety. IT HAS A FREAKING PANORAMA SETTING. Oh, so happy making :D So yeah. Content Maya.
Nic is here, and I haven't even gotten to see her yet >:C Eh, in due time.
Dan is supposedly coming over tomorrow and I'm wondering if I can convince Peter to go too... Hmm... Either that or I'll have to visit him on Saturday. Arghblarghbalahght!
Anyone wanna help me pack? Dx I feel like I'm going to leave to North Carolina and forget some super important thing like my laptop or something and freak out D:
I probably have a ton more stuff I could write about, but I'm just going to leave it at this. Ciao.

Here is a Story

Now is as good a time as ever to write a new blog post.
Right now I'm in my living room, listening to some indie song while my cats lay on either side of me. It's quiet, I'm chatting and old friend and a new friend, listening to the windchimes ring.
I think Kashka has a tic in her right eye. It keeps twitching.
A person at my school started following me on twitter yesterday. I'm not sure what to think about it, considering how he never really acknowledges me and I have an awkward past with him and I don't really hold him in very high respects and all that. It's just... ugh. I might as well write about it, it's not that bad.
So at the beginning of school I had a severe crush on him. And I sort of let him know it, which was the stupidest thing I could have done. Also he was totally out of my league. I guess I could call him the school's Cumberbatch (Although he's still nowhere near being as perfectly gorgeous as Cumberbatch is). Okay, well he was sort of *my* Cumberbatch. There are people that could disagree with me.
Anyways, I really liked him, and it was getting nowhere, I was getting frustrated, and I sorta freaked out and made a fool of myself. Needless to say, I stopped liking him like, 2 months later, although it seemed like ages.
Time passed, we never talked; it's almost impossible to talk to him. He's infuriating that way. Things were... Getting better, I guess. I didn't have feelings for him anymore, and I honestly thought he wasn't worth being friends with either. We finally started to acknowledge each other after a big gap of no talking, nothing. I was sort of mad at him for not wanting me, to be honest.
By that time, I had finally built that concrete wall around my heart. Thank God. Then Valentine's day came around and I was paired up with him on the "cute couples" poster. Aaaand a lot of the feelings came rushing back. He never shows any emotion or anything, like, ever. So I pretended I hated that my name was followed by his with a big heart in the background. I didn't care afterwards, I just wanted him to *feel* something, you know?
After that I just started ignoring him again, and now recently I've been catching looking at me every once in a while. Or maybe it's just wishful thinking.
Traces of what I once felt for him are coming back, along with a resentment that he never did anything. He's like a robot. He can be programmed to be totally gorgeous but he won't feel anything because in the end he's going to destroy the world or something. With these big nuclear bombs or lasers that were hidden behind his dark, almost black eyes. And the target is my heart. Then he'll stomp on the ashes and return back to his programmers in space or something.
Agh, sidetracked. Back to what I was talking about. I still feel some longing for him, and I wonder, "what if...?" But nah. The moment passed, he had his chance and he blew it. I've just been thinking about him a lot more than I should be.
Remember that dream I told you guys about how I liked this guy but he never acknowledged my existence because he felt bad because he was gay? Well that was him. Hehe. It honestly made me laugh when I woke up. I'm not taking all of this too seriously though, although I am a bit peeved that he started following my twitter. I guess that's just what people do. I don't know f I should follow him back. He's just... Ugh. Annoying.
Hehe, well, there's a little story about my past and stupid teenage angst.
Oh, and I'm only posting this because MayaLogic™ is down. If it were working, I would totally keep this to myself. But I feel like I needed to get it out because it's been on my chest for a while and I don't know why I'm thinking about him so much because he's not even that charming or anything there's just something about him that makes me go "wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!" in my tummy and now I'm rambling so I should prolly stop now or it's gonna get really bad.

Breaking down the writer's block

I'm doomed. I can't. I have a writer's block. Aaaaawh, shaving cream!

Heh.

Let's all live tomorrow, shall we?

Ridiculous person wasting their time telling us the world is going to end. I mean, of coooooooourse it's going to end! (Sarcasm) Seeya guys tomorrow!

(Another) Anime convention tomorrow!

Okay, as you all know, the first anime convention I've been to in more than around 7 months is tomorrow. And yes, I know that I've written a lot about anime conventions, and how exciting they are, and you're probably a bit bored with it, but it always excites me every time. I love them because they inspire you to think creatively and use anything you can to get a costume, and it also makes you work. I'm short on money, so I have to work to get it. Honestly, it's not all frivolous and stuff as people claim anime conventions to be. It's hard work. But in the end, it's the most fun time I can have. So yes. If there is ever a time where there is an anime convention around your town, it's worth going to it if you're into creativity and people taking pictures and stuff. You don't even have to like anime so much, it's just a blast. Mik is going to compete in it as Axel. I'm crossing my fingers for her. I've been helping her make the background and stuff, and it's looking amazing. I'm really glad I can help her. It's very possible that she will win.
The only bad thing about anime conventions? Sleep deprivation.

I haven't posted anything in a long time, so I decided I would write something.
I'm home from North Carolina. It was a very fun and exciting trip that brought on a ton of new opportunities for us. I had a great time.
And now I'm home, tired, anxious, not sure what to do with myself. I'm bored. I never really have liked the post-vacation feeling left inside of me. -.-
So now I am left to read my books, maybe do my homework, get on the computer, and continue living my life the way I always do.
Oh, Mik's back! At least there is one exciting thing going on now. Welcome back, Mik!

Dreams?

For some reason I really want to go to the beach. I dreamed about it. It was interesting, although most of it was rather blurry.
I dreamed about a lot of things last night. Most of them only lasted seconds, were only tiny clips until they faded into another part of my dreams.
I must say that none of my dreams were that interesting, there was probably only one that caught my attention. I was driving in the car with mom, and we had passed by a mountain. I recognized the mountain, although I don't know how I recognized it, and I said, "Mom, I want to go to that mountain someday."
My mom looked at me quizzically, since it wasn't that magical of a mountain. "Why, baby?"
"Because I want to see the tree," I said as I looked at where the tree should have been.
She continued driving, we had passed the mountain now. "A tree?"
"Yes." After a moment of silence, I explained, "I dreamed about it. Before I ever saw it. Have you ever had that happen to you? Well, this tree... It must be special, right? If it's real and I know where it is, but I've never seen it? I've seen it in two dreams now. There must be something there...."
My thoughts drifted off into silence, and I sat peacefully in the car while my mom drove. After several minutes' passing, my mom promised me to take me to the tree.

It was a very short clip as well, but I have dreamed about the same location twice. It's probably one of the simplest dreams held dear to me, a simple image of a tree, high up in a mountain, overlooking our lake, with a crystal-clear river running coolly through the mountain.

...But I've never seen it.