Wednesday, September 21, 2011


At some point in time, everyone's dream will be challenged. They'll experience a moment where they're completely crushed, say for example, if someone enters a drawing contest and has complete confidence in themselves that they'll at least place something, and they worked *so* hard for it, but in the end, everything that they did wasn't enough. There will always be someone that is greater than you. It's a fact.
Or for example, if you apply for a college scholarship and you know you have worked incredibly hard for all these years to make enough to put in your application, and you really believe that you have done some really impressive things in your life, like having worked since you were 11 years old or have led a first aid rescue mission. But somewhere out there, there's someone that has been working since they were 10 years old and have done something so much better than you.
It hurts. You feel awful, like you deserve recognition but nobody notices. You feel like you want to give up. You say that no matter how hard you try, or how much you tell people, you're not going to improve. That while you're improving, someone else is still better than you. You'll never reach the top.
You can gain motivation or you can lose it. The latter is easier. You know it is. It is so much easier to just give up and accept that you'll never be anything important. You feel like you just don't want to go on. Life will be easier that way and nobody will notice the potential that you had and you gave away.
But motivation... It comes hard. But when it does, you're capable of doing something great. Something that is completely unique in every way, just like your DNA or a snowflake. Somewhere and sometime, someone will recognize that. You can't give up, because then, for the rest of your life, you will wonder what would have happened had you not given up. You'll regret it, plain and simple.
So although something bad has happened; something that makes you want to give up, you know that there's room for improvement and it's not that hard to get better. If you're doing what you love, then it shouldn't even be a struggle to do. Someday you will become that person that is better than the one next to you. Someday you'll be the one getting the college scholarship or the one that won the drawing contest. If you just keep trying, you'll make it. Plain and simple.
We're challenged. Life is just an obstacle that we must go through to reach what we really want. So even if it seems like there has been injustice done towards you, you have to know that really, what life is doing is asking you, "Are you good enough? Do you really love what you're doing enough to keep on?"

I know I am.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than, less than perfect.
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

I want to make you happy

I am lonely now ._.

Have you ever had a friend that you knew for a little span of time but you cared about them like crazy and you felt like it was up to you to make them happy? Yeah.
I seriously do worry. *Sigh*

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Seven Seasons

First of all, LOOK AT THE FREAKING KITTEN! *dies of cuteness* I want a kitty so bad T.T Whaaiiiii?!?!?! They're so cute and fluffy and playful and cuddly and I'm dying of wanting cuteness! D: u.u

Secondly, I'M SORRY! I changed my blog title and layout again and you probably hate me because I can never keep the same title and it must be annoying being all like, "Why am I watching this Seven Seasons person?! ...Oh. Stupid Maya. Just pick a name already!"
I am sorry. And I will probably change it again. And again and again and you'll just have to live with it.
Okay. Okay. I'm good. I'm fine. *Breathes*

Friday, September 2, 2011


I got the part of Dr. Grimes for the school play. Night of the Living Dead. xD I'm so excited.

School... As much as I feel like a traitor to admit it, is way better than school in Mexico. I have friends. I know people. I like my classes. It's all... It's where I belong.
I'm actually happy. Plain old happy with nothing that can ruin my day.